i am okay i am okay i am okay i am okay i am okay.

iamokay.
iamawesome.
nothingcanmakemefeelotherwise.
nobodycan.

part of me knows i want to hold on to this forever.
part of me says not to hold my faith too high so i don't get hurt.

i made a fool out of myself.

dear diary,

have you ever felt upset?
not cause you didn't win a game.
but that you lost some broken reliance.

have you ever felt upset?
not cause you lost a pillar,
but the balance of the pillar.

have you ever felt upset?
which is worse?
not having something or having it broken?

how did we get here
when i thought i know you so well.
when i thought you know me so well.
i realise i'm wrong.

am i upset for being accused of getting upset for a wrong reason?
it became a totally different reason before and after.

maybe i haven't changed at all.
sorry trust haven't been my best subject.
that my heart sank when you said that.
you don't know me afterall.

i was used to walking on ice alone.
it was so much easier when it was easy to steer clear of anyone.
now that i let my guts down a little and slipped.
it hurts more than i imagined.