so long

hi diary.
it must have been long and quiet.
just thought i dust off some cobwebs here and jot some of my little feelings here. just me and you.
now it's just us, no more the 17 year old girl five years ago.

i went back to king albert park macdonalds that day.
i looked around, my mind overwhelmed with pieces of flashbacks. mostly good, mostly wonderful, well a tiny bit of bitter accompanied though.

i thought of A and cringed a little. you know diary, they always say we have to learn to let things go, to be happier. i did try, just that there are still times when i sit alone and let my mind wander a little too far away, and what comes to mind always stops at places that i was a little more of a letdown- to myself, most importantly to people and things that i was once passionate in. far too many. they call it, life. i hate myself for the numerous times that i let my heart sink too deep. it shouldn't be like that.

it shouldn't be like that.